kinda had been so long din update my blog le..
i can use one word to describe those days that i am having ..
called complicated....

loving someone that is lost feel on me...
giving spaces to him...
control my temper...
change my bad character...
do i really can pass it?
i am still failed...

trying ... keep on trying... is the only things i try now...

and life is miserable...
friendship is totally spoiled...
i feel i'm heading to hell soon...
i dun understand why u dun believe me as u buddy..
but u blif them...
when i saw u .. you can even just ignore it
and passed away...
i feel so hurt and crieS..
do u know how hurt is iT??

i sware i din talk bad word behind of you...
blif or not..
i cant do anything...

haiz... kinda's life is totally full of obstacles..
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feel like wanna shout out loUD!!!!

at hometown now..
^^... teeeeDEEE!!

going v ming qiu and bee keey lator...
xinyi is working now =(
i gonna forget everything!
i dun wan to become sot zhai after 2 years!

happy ever after...

i am sorry if i been so rude to him yesterday!
what i say you can just answered whatever.. fren what...
then forget about it la...

i am pretty tired!
pretty frus ... pretty no feel anymore..
hate the feeling...


i and jeFFrey leong is no more couple!

just live through it...
never turn back..
NEVER!

i just missing him right now with no doubt...
why i am a human who din appreciate his present whenever he is with me...
why i am like that?!!!

i truely feel so damn lost...
why??!!!
perhaps he in my heart is really the important one...
i want to cried d la =="

HElp! god please give me strength..
pray hardly to you...


















i have no sense of taste ..
this is what i throw inside the rubbish ..
i am full.. i am appetite

early morning love sick =="
i almost cant stand d la!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

seems everything passed so fast..
and i am now is single =D...

ppl may think why am i not sad?
ya... what can i do? i already have no choice!
i am totally felt with broken heart whenever he tell me that he is not going to love me anymore...

ya.. i always annoyed him.. but all this is care and want to know what is he actually doing...
where is him and who he is going with...
just forget about it la since we are frens..
cause i gonna annoyed him against.. Xd....

just like yesterday...
kinda go out with someone just to buy new year clothes..
girls seems very jealous .. perhaps in their heart i am the one who likes to take away their boy fren.. do i?
do i feel happy if my own bf is not telling me true instead of keep secret without telling...
trust is the most important things within a pair of couple...
what i get is couple always need to be in same road... need to think of each other feeling...

i really cant live without him.. cause i do really love him..
i really cant breathe when i know he is going off..
love is turn off.. no more turn on
but what can i do?
i already apologized.. promise this that....
promise will change...
but he is not mine.. just let it go la...
no FATE...... ="(

but i will still try to change de ... i still trying cause is good for my ownself also...
no shouting at ppl =)...
dudez may think sandra will shout at ppl de meh?
she always speak softly de wo... how can she do it?
actually i really fierce like a lion "king" =P....
i also dun know i really got so fierce meh ??....
i din really notice that.. i will change to be softer =D...

next time...i wan find a guy that love me more than i love him..
i know is abit mean but.. guy should be gentlemen right?
and i been awake by su ling's word...
when i know i going to lost him...
i really feel my head is paining like hell..... cant breathe... is like killing me...
i really wan to jump down from condo...

and su ling is the one who keep wake me up...
saying that :"

i just came back from yam cha with some one..
i chat with him for nearly 2 hours..
and ya.. i realize many things..

ACtually i am unmature.. =(
i came to kl... i wan to go out to play..
clubbing... snooker.. and sometimes when i feel stress ..
i would wan to release stress with the way of making myself dizzy and drunk..
that's is going to club with frens that i not really know.. just meet for few times..

against i do wrong things after i been wake by him..
i fight against him because i had write something to his profile and i am totally blurred..
i really taught is just a joke or wish.. myself also dun know..
and the end we end up with cold war...
ya.. i am wrong... this time i really felt it...
i am sincerely apologized to you.. that been hurt many times..

i am doubt with our relationship..
after i saw what u write..
u may say i am sensitive.. or mean..
but i do feel very sorry that i really in wrong channel..
i am pretty sorry...

hope you can forgive .....

and wish you have fun ^^...
laughter is the one u have always... ^^

XOXO

it seems too late ..
LAzy to update my blog d la..
hehe..

GUD nite...
XOXO