upset + worried = make noise

again we have a fight yesterday...
i just wanna hug him for whole night because i seriously ill..
i know that he is tiRED and CAshless.
but still my heart calling for pain...

nowdays...
break up this word easily spoken out FRom his mouth..
whenever we quarrel .. he will asked me to break up v him...
again and again.. i dun feel good ..
is terrible pain..
he told me that he will avoid..
but realistic is a ????

today i received a call...
is an unknown number again!
he called me and asked whether i wearing a white t-shirt?
ya... that time i was wearing kdu's t-shirt...
i dun know where is he... but he is somewhere around me...
i asking for help and now i am safe at home!
stupiD! who are playing a fool with me!!
IDIOT!..

my mum gonna make me move out from this place..
but i not willingly go away from my this room?
i love my memoriEs.. i love my ROOM ...

=="... i dun know what can i do?
can i bring along my room to the other place?
sick... sick chick.. =C

ANnOYED!

kinda's heart is paining now...
feel like something is broken it and gonna move away from me...

day come to days... i feel more pain...
today i total up dropped tears for whole days..
when i am doing homework at library...
when i was waiting bus at bus station..
while he din pick up my calls..
while i am hearing songs using mp3...
while i was sitting alone at canteen..
while i am inside the room alone...

GOD! help me!!
feeling so pain!!! SO freaking PAIN!!
help me!! =C...

here i am... again i am always busy for this while...
i saw someone's blog ..
and i notice that she cut her own finger instead of loving too deep v her bf...
...

i know it's stupid..
i am girl.. i know their feeling
easily lost controlled...

girls need cares and also love..
the other ways guys need respect...

and sorry my dudes...
myselF cassandra also got do before...
cause seriously i cannot controlled anymore...
i feeling so insane... why love make me so pain...
make myself hurt...is pain... but my heart is even more pain than it!

and he told me that he is going for a trip with his fren INCLUDED the girl..
what i feel? i feel upset and started to explored again...
haiz... that night i seriously cant sleep...
i request someone to bring me out from my little room..
cause is totally huRT...
Boy! do u know how i feel?

my love is dull...
frens duno we are actually couple..
cant go for a vacation ...
have less time to meet (two weeks once)
only use phone to communicate...

FRens .. when u guys involve with relationship..
what will u all do?
izit like me? two weeks meet once?
just call and sms? ...

i really bluRREd...

GOsh what i have planned according my schedule for today failED!
i taught can Finish doing my Presentation sliDE but!!
FAilure... i am so "useful" =D

today's is Wan Hwa bday... u guys sure dun know her cause she is no more staying in this world..
for those who same primary with me may know who is she......
She is my besties while i was primary 6...
because of study in different school..
we less contact.. and i dun even know that she had passed away since its happened for almost 2 months ago...
I called her house phone and asked..but her mum dun let me know..
telling that she is still alive...
but her aunty said that she already passed away cause of lacking red blood cells...
she have no appetite to eat .. drink.. and even smile...
she just dun wan let me worried.. she dun let her mum tell me the truth...
haih... my heart is paining now...

things happened for almost 5 years d...
still i wont forget the time we got together...
spoiled the door.. make others frens cry...
i like it.. i used to be naughty all the while..
What can i do? since i born to be like this...
haha.....

REst in peace my DEar....
I am here wishing you.. Happy BDay...
i never forget our frenship...
how fAR u go.. still we have FAte to see each other again...

Happy bday to you...
HAppy bday to you...
Happy bday to WAn hwa...
Happy bday to you... =D

is just a refreshment before get attention to read my blog =D...
the pic above is showing 3 different type of "SAGU SAGU" which make by "GEI dak sek" restaurant.... the colour is according to the traffic light...
that time i was hanging out with 3/10 friends from dodge ball society...