heart paining with silent...
every time when i on my facebook..
i will sure saw ur pic..
ur pic with her...
why?!!! almost all the time i saw it..

i started feel hurt ...
cries... i hate this part..

my heart is calling for pain..
again my tears drop .. it touched my cheek..

and emo..
today i had quarrel v shomalla cause of locker..
sorry cause i really need the materials to do my assignment..
and i dun mean to be so cruel to you..
im here apologized and hope u can forgive me....

im sorry...

there comes new room mate..
he studies at segi college...
business course...
whatever..im bored v guy..
din really see his face... forget what he called..
u want to know him just knock my door and u slowly ask la...

alot of assignment i havent do yet...
ARGH! help me... i am pretty tired...
was not in a good mood..
miss something.. very upset.. =C...
very unhappy...

XOXO...

let me know the road..
show me the road where i need to travel for the rest of my life...
imma curious with it..
and my life is getting tougher ...

pray hard for myself.. not to get down...
never give up...

clubbing or not?
in my mind... clubbing is one of the most dangerous activities..
and ya... clubbing is one of the way to make girl die ..
but actually not...
clubbing is way to go further from stress..
get drunk... get high...
all is so relax....

but still kinda dun dare to go ...
cause! i dun wan? huh? (am i so innocent)? hehe...
no! actually i have make a deal with friend..
but can i overcome it?
idk... just wait and see =D...

yeah.. every time while fren request to go club..
i WONT REFUSE!
=D... my mind start shaking...
yes i do.. i WANT to have a try..
kinda curious =D...
but! at the end!
the result is ... nvm la...
U GUYS ENJOY THERE -C....

i will keep thinking and thinking...
i wan but i dun DARE to WANT iT!

same as my love too... =C
i dun have a right decision...
all also i wAN =D...
all also i nEED!

that's me.. SANDRA ..

why u can do this to me??
why u can just let me be so lonely here without ur regard..

recently.. dun know what happened to me
everything was so bad...
today get scolded by lecturer...
get scolded stupid..
get hurt by others..

i really hate love.. and yet my college life too..
i feel like crying...

make me stay alone...
make me feel that there is no body in this world..
i freaking hate everything..
seriously can know how alone am i here...

i HATE U... ALL

i miss these moment..
i am waiting for your reply ..
why u din even reply for four days le..
u stayed there for one week le e...
...........
one month din see ur face... one week din hear ur voice..
i really miss u so much.. =CCC~~~

haih... kinda just came back from hometown
within this raya break..
i worked at one utama for five days...
he went to uk..
my aunty passed away...
mum and dad went to sarawak..
i came back to my memorable room ....

cant smile like previous time..
cant laugh like crazy gal...

hmph... why so borED my liFE

tomorrow is my last day going to work at watson..
and i finally i complete almost 90% of my work....
and ..what i realise is
the different from last time compare now...
is totally not alike while i worked at perfume shop on february 2010..
the job i holding.. the colleague i have fun chatting with..
the knowledge about medicine.... the kind manager...
different races of communication between colleague
... different customer... different feeling...
and the most different is the life without calling him ...

my life here totally changed...
is totally different from my past..
CHANGED!

not available.. thx..

i love you..
haru haru - big bang
u let me know this song..
u let me know about big bang..
u explained to me what they are actually singing..
what is the sinopsis...
even play this song for me...
practise so hard just to make me happy..

because last time u really treat me SO good
i too rely on u.. i feel so secure while im with you..
since the day u go work..
u started busy..
that why we started quarrel..
i really cant accept...
and so many things happened..
thats what its happened now..
like ending..

i keep those memories inside my heart
that is why i cant give up u..
i scared i will regret..
i wish u will still come back..
that why i cant .. i keep dizzy ..
i keep paining..
i cant =C..

can u explain to me..
why?
i started to miss u so much now?...
i could not sleep..
i miss u badly... please

online!
and let me feel ur touch...

miss you without tiredness..
even though i am tired...

my feeling now is worst that last time...
i miss someone..especially the voice ..
...kinds have no appetite..
but i finished up 3 cola as my meal..
weird...feel like drinking something sWEEt..
perhaps my heart is lack of SWeet ..

lucky my fren kristine staying beside me..supporting me
she overnight my place yesterday and we have a chat ..
she scared ppl cry.. and i am one of it...
but i din cry yesterday nite... =)..

AnD
now he have gone
gone to somewhere else...
gone to hundred miles further from me...
he reached UK safely..
thanks god for taking care of him ..
and wish he will soon make himself get used of this new environment...
the weather .. the situation.. the food..
stuDy hard my dear..

...
Damn!
today i meet a rude customer..
been scolded without reasons..
and she din even tolerate at all..
freaking brainlESS..

argh.. i am TIRED!..
not forget today is another valentine day..
waiting for what u have promise..
what u had said... always reminds me...
never forget...

looked at my FAce..
u will know what happened to me..
things getting tough..
i getting weak...
no appetite on eating..
just eat dessert as my dinner..

is time to eat medicine again ...
i need a plaster cover my piece of heart..

i am seriously no mood..
cries..
cry with pain..

hold it... hold it!!!
seriously with my emotional..
i cant control myself doing stupid things
again i make u guys worried..
thx for someone who take good care of me..
appreciate that i have a good friend like u

tomorrow.. he have to go somewhere hundred times further to me...
he gonna bound to another country...
make me INSANE! i make used of listening to his voice for 2 years and plus..
i gonna have alots of trouble!..
TROUBLESOME !

why!!!.. why FAR relationship AGAIN!
from teluk intan to kl..
now he from kl to UK!..
=="... WAT is al thiS!??

separate me with this earth..
make me live without any disturbance from love..
i seriously ill ..
i started to hate ppl around me
especially girls who always change bf..
bitch!..
yet girl who like to seduce boY!

hate eveRYthing!
haTE ppl who CARe of mE!
hate ppl who takE away my thingS!
hate evERything!

i hate boy who ask me things about relationship..
no offended .. and notice i was not reply ur question at all just yes..
even who try make me fall in loVE!
i curSE myselF not to get into any RElationship even get maRRY!
i dun wan! i dun wish!!.. i mean iT!!


i wonT! get in any relationship ANYMORE!
i SWARE!.. even onE!
no feeling chatting v guy.. no! NEVER EVER!

broken heART!

oh yeah! scream on me!! =D
kinda feel like something goes wrong today...
be insane all the while..
play around the world is what i wish to do now...

right now i am at computer lab..
obviously there is no lecturer is teaching
because Everyone have leave their heart on holidays mood ...even lecturers too =X

tomorrow i gonna work at watson as part time promoter ..
my dad was not allowed me to take this job..
and he gonna come back tomorrow as well..

just wish everything will be fine after he know =C...
and something bad happened yesterday .. and i dun know how to tell my parents..
im in trouble.. =C
i hope the problem will be solve without making them angry or worry..

xoxo

aeroplane..
just fly me out from circle...